Currently Reading Atonement: A Novel By Ian McEwan see related

We woke up this morning at 10:30am only to discover it was really 9:30am!!! What a little cocoon we've been in that we didn't even realize it was time to turn the clocks back.

The past month has felt like one big rollercoaster. I'm still feeling its effect. Vulnerability is the first word that comes to mind when I think about what I've been left with. I wake up each day with the fear that this is it, today is the day that my little world will crumble. Then I get on with it and lull myself into a false sense of security and continue on with my day. It never leaves my mind. I may seem absorbed with the book I'm reading, but my mind is spinning with what ifs about something I have little control over. I may seem to be engulfed in my pile of assessments, but my mind quickly wanders back to this blasted grey cloud that is hovering over me every single day.

Back to work tomorrow. Well, let's be true here, I didn't actually have a half-term break. I worked because I need to. Fortunately, it was a great week of Play Scheme. I got to enjoy a side to some of the kids that I usually don't see. Some people may criticize that we didn't get a lot registered, but I will argue that the quality time we got to have with the children will never really be replaced by higher registration numbers.

I'm proud to say that I love my job. There's nothing more exciting as working with young children and being surprised by them every day. But with PER and OFSTED breathing down my neck, I'm torn between wanting to do my best and loathing that I have to put on a show to impress people who haven't taught in a classroom in goodness knows how many years.

Back to assessments now. I took a little break earlier when I went out to get groceries. Goodness, Tesco at 5pm on a Sunday is filled with my fellow Chinese people!!!! It's not often I get to experience that now a days. I forgot how loud and rude some can be. I was getting really annoyed with the girl behind me in the check out line because she kept on bumping into me as the line progressed to the front. I was dying to get out ASAP!